Forgive .........

In the last week, the subject of “what happened” has found it's way into several conversations. I so dislike the subject, I am sure ALL of us dislike the subject. It makes me sad, it hurts, and discourages me so. I have come to the conclusion that because this event remains as an unresolved issue, it is allowed to rear it's ugly head now and then, even to our dismay.

I have in the months and months that have past, explored possible means of putting this to rest. I always come to the same conclusion, to resolve it means to bring it up again, to tell the whole story, to name names, to cause additional hurt, and that is the last thing I want to do. So I have sat here and let it fester inside of me, taken the criticism from others, felt the hate others have for me, quietly taken the bad mouthing, the black balling, the de-friending, all of it. The last thing I want is for ANYONE to feel the things I have felt.

Yesterday my very good friend, gave me the answer. It is so simple, amongst all the hurt and pain, I guess I never saw the trees in spite of the forest. She may have said what she said to me in hopes that I would “get” the message and do what I am about to do. I don't know for sure, but I am very thankful to her for her friendship and wisdom.

I forgive everyone for all of it. EVERYONE including myself. I am sorry for any hurt or pain that was caused to anyone for anything related to this situation. It is a wonderful feeling to let it all go. It is the gift I am giving myself. I forgive you.

I found this quote :

Take it slowly. The deepest resentments are wrapped up in a lot of hurt and pain. We think we're protecting ourselves by not forgiving. Acknowledge that and go easy on yourself. Forgiveness means that you've decided not to let it keep festering inside even if it only comes up once in awhile. Forgiveness is a powerful yet challenging tool that will support and honor you, even in the most extreme circumstances.

Doc Childre and Howard Martin, The HeartMath Solution

I think this says a lot, well at least to me. So this is where I stand, I have granted my whole heart forgiveness for the ugly situation that happened.

"From failure we learn, from success, not so much." Aunt Billie, Meet the Robinsons.

I learned, I learned a lot, and now I will just .............

Keep moving forward ............